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Posted by: thispageisnothere Original: 7/30/2006 12:44 AM Views: 1 Comments: 5 eProps: 6 Read Comments Post a Comment Back to Your Xanga Site

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Sunday, July 30, 2006

Help...

Help...

I feel I'm slipping into a deep depression...

Where my father is my worst nightmare...

And my grandmother is the heroin that's never there...

Help...

My God it feels as if He is cursing me for me parents mistakes...

I try to dig up with words but words get pushed aside...

So I find myself digging down covering myself in self-hate, scorn, and envy...

Soon it will be to late and I will be buried...

Help...

But he still does not understand it is Him that makes me this way...

Him that makes me hate him for what he has done to me...

But my heart still loves him...

Help...

Every time he takes my heart and tears it...

I still love him...

I will always love him...

He is my dad after all...

Help...

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did you write that as a poem?? Well love ya darlin!! Wed. is the lock in at the church!!~aShLeY mIcHeLlE!~

Posted 7/30/2006 2:31 PM by southerngurl4u - reply

Yeah this wednesday is the lock in!!! call monica for more info....i wasnt there to hear all about it....i just know thats when it is!! love ya babe!~aShLeY mIcHeLlE!~

Posted 7/31/2006 2:09 PM by southerngurl4u - reply

Hey Bre, 'never knew you were so poetic. Ah, I love depression. It makes people think differently; I just hope your not to depressed to think of doing something drastic and unreasonable...Love ya bunches & when's the next time you'll be at your dads?...random, I know.
I am probly going to have to go to group therapy soon...greeaat.
(I'm not joshing ya by the way) Right now a lady thinks I have a Boarderline Personality Disorder. or I'm Bipolar. Other than that, I'm just peachy.
Oh yeah, and I LOVE my new AFI cd; I'll burn a copy if you want.
Talk to ya later Breninne. haha, new name.god, soon it'll be like, Totoed or something...maybe not so drastic though....lol.
Luv ya ~`Amie

Posted 8/2/2006 11:30 AM by Atrocitas_Femella - reply

Well call Craig!! Call somoene!! Just go and call you Mimi to bring your stuff later thats what I am doing!!! Love ya!!~aShLeY mIcHeLlE!~

Posted 8/2/2006 12:40 PM by southerngurl4u - reply

it's gonna be ok brittany i promise u will get through this ....if worst comes to worse i will lend u my cell phone for the weekends and u can use it i have free local and long distance calling ....u can use it for emergencys if u want to.... if he lets u use the comp. u could email ur grandmother..it's gonna be ok. i love u...hope u get to come sunday i might be there

Posted 8/3/2006 8:12 PM by pinkladyshopper - reply

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